I don’t know about you, but I’m happy 2018 is finally over. This past year has been a complete whirlwind. Not all bad, but not all good either. It’s just one of those years that you look back and say see ya later sucka!
So what happened you ask?
Well what makes it not a great year is the fact that I can hardly remember what happened. And no this isn’t one of those I drank so much I can’t remember type years. It’s the fact that the year went so fast that I can’t remember if something happened this year or the year before.
For example my husband went on our very first kid free vacation to Las Vegas for our sixth wedding anniversary. The trip was amazing. We gambled, we drank, and I got to experience my very first Supercross race which was so much fun. The fact that I got to do all of that with my partner in crime just made the experience that much better.
The funny thing is…I thought that trip happened in 2017.
Another example, I started this blog back in March. I decided to venture down this long, windy, road that I’m still not sure what I’m doing or how I got here. However I’m determined to make this blog a success no matter how long it takes or how rough the road is.
But again, I thought it happened two years ago.
Well things that I can remember happening this year very vividly is of course all the things that my kids did.
To start off my oldest went on his very first no parent trip to D.C. with his safety patrol. This was terrifying for me as he has never been in another city without one parent being with him. Learning to trust not only him, but the chaperones was a tough one. Luckily one of my best friends was chaperoning and she is basically another mom to him so I knew he was in great hands. It also helped that I constantly received pictures and a phone call every night.
He had an amazing time and in a snap he ended his elementary school years and so began his middle school career. He also went on to play two seasons of baseball, a season of tennis, and is now starting basketball.
My youngest had a year of firsts. First season of Weeball, first season of dance, and she not only started one Pre-K program, but two.
Our girl wasn’t bad like you may think, she just received an opportunity that we couldn’t pass up. We loved both programs and it was a hard decision to make, but in normal sassy girl fashion she has been a Rockstar.
She also had her very dance recital which was absolutely adorable to watch.
I guess you could say they (well we) had our plates full.
So What was so bad about it?
And that’s the funny part. Besides the normal financial struggles and daily struggles that being married and having children can put on you, not a whole lot horrible happened.
Oh wait our bathroom flooded our house and we haven’t been able to remodel like we planned, but in all honesty it wasn’t a horrendous year.
It was just a trying year.
I struggled hard with self doubt. The pressure I put on myself to achieve these dreams I had set and to achieve them in a quick manner took it’s toll. I wanted instant gratification and it never came.
I started this blog in hopes it would be a huge success like all the Pinterest blogs tell you it will be. However it was not like that at all. I can say though that I didn’t put in the amount of effort that I know I can.
My Instagram wasn’t a huge success like I thought it would be, neither was my YouTube channel. That’s the thing though, I had all of these expectations when I first started all of these outlets and didn’t put in the effort that I needed to.
So yes my year wasn’t all horrible, but it wasn’t what I had expected. It was exhausting. And as usual I’m looking forward to a new year and a new start. New Ideas and expanding my dreams. To actually making my dreams a reality.
So Goodbye 2018 and Good Riddance.
Here’s to making 2019 my…..year.